All I think and thought about you...

April 10, 2025

Yesterday was my birthday, and I've turned 17. It was a first birthday that I got to celebrate with a valuable person to me, that isn't a family member. I never celebrated my birthdays with friends, I never thought of them as being important enough or my birthday to share. It was a first time that I got to share my birthday with someone who isn't a family, but yet still so close to me. My birthdays aren't important to me, so I don't like getting together with people to celebrate it, but yet, I wanted to see you on that day. It wasn't because my birthday became important to me, but because a person that used to be a stranger to me, became important to me, and I know I'm important to them, and it was a whole new feeling.

December 15, 2025

Yesterday Ethan confessed to me that he loves me, I really don't know how to feel about it yet, but what I do know is that I'm not against it. And if Im not against it, that means I do have feelings, but it is so hard to tell what I feel and how I should react to it.

April 14, 2025

Me, and my favorite person, who's also my boyfriend, Ethan, finally got to hangout, after a bit of not being able to. And since prom is relatively soon, I don't think we would be able to hangout again for a long while before/after it. While I'm excited for prom, we would be hanging out in a group, and it would be weird to be affectionate in a group, so I'm already starting to miss the one-on-one time, because we wont have that for a bit. I really want to always be all over him, I want to always hold hands, and hug him, and kiss him, and just be close to him, when I'm with him, I just feel like I'm going to explode from affection, and I neeeeeed to be close with that person. I love spending time with him, it doesn't really matter to me, at all, what we do, or where we are spending time, I just love being with him. I love how whenever we see each other, we always kiss and hug, and I never want to let go of that, and when we say goodbye after hanging out, I want to hug him longer, and hope it lasts forever.

April 21, 2025

Few days ago, I went to prom with my wonderful boyfriend, and I actually had a great time. I was very stressed before that, thinking I would mess up with something or be left out, or even worse - be cold. However, because I was there with my favorite person, everything was so wonderful! He looked so handsome the whole time, and was always so nice to me, I love him so much. We were there with a group, and even though I saw most people there only like twice, I was very comfortable around everyone, mostly because my boyfriend was there, so I was really happy. I'm very grateful to have my boyfriend in my life, and I'm very grateful to have had such a wonderful time at prom with him. I hope we can go to prom next year together too. I definently did not think it would be fun at all, but it ended up being great. That day made me fall in love with him all over again, because I got to experience such wonderful day, because of him, and with him. The most time we got to spend together one on one, was when we were driving back, and we were waiting for the traffic light to turn red, so we could kiss. It was way late, and dark, and we were driving back, and it was most time we got alone. And after spending so much time together, yet couldn't be alone, we were so desperate for a kiss. At the traffic light, when it turned red, he grabbed me by the back of my head/neck and pulled me in for a kiss, it was dark with red traffic light shinning while we were kissing. Oh, that must of been the most beautiful feeling ever.

August 30, 2025

People always say "it's your first relationship" and "you are too young" and that my relationship won't last. And who knows, maybe they are right, but I want to believe otherwise. Every phase of this relationship is great and good while it lasts. Not everything is perfect, and it doesn't have to be. It's not perfect and that's what creates love. Being with each other while not everything is perfect. "the perfect" doesn't exist, it is what all the imperfections create together. Not everything is perfect, but I am dating an amazgin person, who I truly value. He always listens to me, and has something nice to say, and doesn't make me feel like I have to shut up and that I talk to much. Always since I was a kid, I was told that I talk too much, but I just have a lot to share and say. And it feels like he's the first person who doesn't make me feel bad for that, and actually listens to me, and values what I say, and always has soemthing nice to say, making it seem interested in what I say, which is incredibly important, since if someone cares about what I say, it makes me happy. When I talk, I talk about what I care about, and when someone cares about what I care about, it makes me feel like they care about me, and that is a very important part of love for me.

March 16, 2025

I'm really grateful to have such an amazing and wonderful boyfriend, he's everything I could ever wish for, and my parents who are usually strict, don't mind me being with him. He always cares about me, I get to talk with him as much as I want with him. I would never want to lose him. We've only been together for few months as of now, but I want this to last forever. And forever, is a strong word, and the word used to scare me, but if I get to spend forever with him, it brings me some peace. In my whole life, having a wonderful person with me, forever, is something nothing can replace, and I want to have that with him.

Fall, 2025

There were so many different phases of this relationship, and not all of them were plesant. However, what we have right now, is so far my favorite. We often get to go to your house and watch anime together. It doesn't matter to me what we watch, what matters is that we are spending so much time together, it is 3-4 times a week that we get to hangout, and this is the most wonderful thing that has happened to me. We get to be so close to each other the whole time, I do think that it could be more fun, we could go for walks or just hangout somewhere, rather than staying in. However, it is my favorite phase we've had, since I get to spend so much time, and I can't be any happier.